Let’s read a story before I share you my opinion about God’s presence! I found an interesting story. I think it is a common story. However, here is the story;
There was a scientist had a conversation with a religious man, say a kyai.
Scientist : I have been study abroad for a long time and I have questions still unanswered. I have three questions about God and those questions have never been able to be solved even by famous, smart scientists in this world. First, why do people believe in God but actually the case is God has never been formed? Second, what is destiny? Does it exist? Third, if evils made from fire, why God will put them into the hell also made from fire? It must be not hurting evils because both of them made from same materials. Have your God never thought that?
Suddenly that kyai slap him right on his cheek three times.
Scientist : What did you do? Why did you slap me?
Kyai : Those three slaps answer your three questions.
Scientist : I really do not understand.
Kyai : How was my slap? What do you feel?
Scientist : It hurts, I feel pain.
Kyai : So you believe in pain, don’t you?
Scientist : Of course!
Kyai : Show me the form of the pain you believe!
Scientis : I can’t.
Kyai : That is the answer for your first questions. We feel the form of God without be able to see His form.
Did you have a vision that I will slap you? Have you ever thought of it?
Scientist : No.
Kyai : That is called with destiny.
What do my hand made from? What do your cheek made from? Do both of them made from same materials?
Scientist : Yes, of course. They are made from flesh with skin covers them.
Kyai : How was my slap?
Scientist : It hurts.
Kyai : See? My hand with the same materials can hurt your cheek. If God want to, hell can be the most hurting place even for evils.
Finally the scientist said nothing in silence.
From the story above, I can get the lesson that God exists though he never appears. I just believe like any religious one believe in Him. I feel His presence both in my head and heart. I feel the peace when I do the task He ask like sholat five times a day, do fasting, and read Al-Quran. In the other hand, I feel the fear when I do not do that task. I feel something is missing when I forget Him. Maybe Islam has already controlled me, my head, and my heart. However, it is fine if it controlled me to the good way, to be better myself.
For the first time, I believe in my God because I want to, but as long as I learn it, I believe in God because I have to. I believe my God just the way I believe. Though my parent never teaches me about my religion, Islam, I learned a lot from others such as my Islam teacher in school or someone who taught me how to read Al-Quran when I was child. I wonder what I believe if I school in Christian school. Do I still Islam or convert into Christian like my mother? All I can say is I do not know.
Islam tells me that Islam is the only religion that God bless, everyone who possesses other religions are not going to feel heaven. However, I do not want to blame the others who do not have. I think other religions say it so to its members. I want to respect them who have other religions as long as they can be good at me and do not disturb me.
At the end of this reflective paper, I conclude that having a religion is a right for human mankind. We cannot force everyone to believe what we believe. Just do what we believe! However, God is here, in my head and my heart, directs me on the right path, to the better myself. I believe it.
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